guys envy edward
haha! twilight fever has spread so is the edward cullen addiction. Every girl is dreaming to Bella. so guys better be Edwards. haha
10:48 PM
pressured, nostalgic me
Everything is happening so fast. it’s as if an hour is just a minute tick of a clock.
Just yesterday, I was comfortably doing nothing at home but now I am here troubled about the things which I should’ve done over the weekends. Every moment seemed transient. Yet with that realization, it seemed though that my adrenaline is not in for some kickin. I maybe pressured yes but my body is not functioning as it should have. Damn. I am finding it hard to organize my thoughts. Mental bloc.
I have a psy 1 paper which I was supposed to be doing at this moment which apparently is a work not progressing. Then I still have a speech plan. damn. My speech day is near!
Whatever. Come what may, they will fix themselves anyway.
Now I am sounding stoic.
moments, they are indeed fleeting. the only way to make them last is to instill them in memories. sadly though the brain can accommodate only a few. and those only you hold really dear would be lasting.
nostalgic much? i am missing my friends again. so much. how come they never called?
10:06 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008Y
damned
before the week started, i've promised myself that i will save money. i even brought canned goods which i intended to eat in my dorm so i don't have to dine in canteens or in restos.
anyway, it seemed that i failed. i consumed much of my allowance now, i wonder if it can even last for two weeks more.
damn. i have a lot of things i needed and wanted to buy thats why i'm saving, but i guess those would have to wait until i finally have that enough will to keep my promise. damn. it's really really hard.
speaking of WILL, i remembered that in our PHLO class , there was this point made about the Will being weak. Ya. i couldnt agree less.
10:41 PM
a walk... that's not really unforgettable
just arrived here at my dorm from zean's. we kind of had a little chat over her place while i played games on her laptop then dined. it was late already after we dined so i had to go back to my place. the jeep had just arrived but i did not intend to wait for long so i decided to hang out with zean for more minutes. then i realized that the jeep was to go, though it is not yet completely filled. to sabotage my social life was not really my priority so i didnt come rushing for the jeepney. i was left. damn
options considered:
i) walk alone in the dark.
ii) asked zean to walk me up to the men's dorm.
iii)asked our friend who lives in the same dorm that she lives in to go out of his room and so we could have a chat then bug him later to walk me up to the men's dorm.
iv) wait for the jeepney
naturally, zean was not really willing to walk with me. so that's not a choice. and i was really not sure if i can ask our common friend to accompany me because we are still not that close. he wouldve think me as a USER which is soo not true. so neither is an option.
option i) vs. iv).
iv seemed to be the most practical. crap. indeed it was. but i ended up walking becuase i got so fed up with the eternal wait for the jeepney to arrive. luckily, a stranger took the path i was to take. i catched up.
the walk was not that bad. nor was it that scary. thanks to the street lamps along the path the cliche horror movie vibe of the road lessened. hehe
i had to ride a jeepney when i reached the men's dorm to raymundo gate, then walk again. until finally i could enjoy the confines of dancel. =)
watever. end of story. that's basically what happened after i arrived here in LB from Manila.
7:08 AM
Saturday, August 2, 2008Y
pffff..
received this comment from a friend on friendster, it says "akala ko ba di ka uuwe neng?"
i guess, it cant be helped. im home. well, i did really plan not to get home actually. however i dont have money left so i went home to get my stipend plus there's this priority i have to attend to.
well for some reasons, coming home, didnt excite me as it does before. say im getting used to living at elbi.okay, maybe im sounding very selfish here but i am not saying that i dont want to get home. i sure miss the lot around here and the everyday havoc of living here at manda.
i want to try how elbi life feels like during the weekends. im soo curious.
next week that would be impossible of course for it's zeans birthday. the week after next week and the next is an impossibility too because my friends will be celebrating their birthdays too. oh how feasty august is!
anyway, will they be planning to have a party or a get together maybe? or am i just assuming. i soo wanted to greet them personally but that too seemed to be complicated. Our schedules dont jive.
haii...
it's sad actually to not feel their presence but its all the more depressing to have my presence not be felt by them.
1:40 AM
