Tuesday, December 29, 2009Y
before i let you go i want to say...
i love you
i hope that you're listening 'cause it's true
You'll be forever my heart and i know no one else will do
This was the song that has been playing on repeat in my head since i came home from the house of my deceased ninang. She died tonight after a hard battle against breast cancer. It's sad i never got to see her this Christmas. It's sad because she's a generous person and a thoughtful ninang. At one point, I regret having an unpersonal bond with her despite all the generosity and thoughtfulness and concern she always had for me.But I'll be missing her for sure.
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Some random thoughts on Death
If I could direct how I my life would end, I would'nt want it to end so dreadfully slow. Perhaps, I would like to die in an instant of a heroic act. I wouldnt want to die in an accident. That would be dreadful plus I dont want my corpse looking anything but lovely. So no tragic accident for me.
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Please pray for the soul of my Ninang Glo, may she rest in peace.
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Sunday, December 27, 2009Y
LOVE OVER EVERYTHING
This blog has been dead for quite some time. Blame the lack of internet access in elbi. Err - computer shops abound the campus so honestly, it's really my procrastination that had this blog gone dead for a time. I guess or at least it's one of the many factors. Say, another factor for having such blank blog entries would be the lack of inspiration.
Oh yeah right. Lack of inspiration - the romantic excuse for being unproductive.
Anyway, this is the time of the year when I am mostly inspired to write. Today's my birthday. Some introspection is just timely. Plus a new year is to come.
And time indeed flies faster when you are unaware of it. Count one year and a day back, and you would find me strolling mindlessly in megamall, troubled by the thought that no one had remembered that it would be my 18thbirthday on the 28th(which is, as norms dictates, is an important phase in a girl's life -
Whatever!!!! ) eventually i would be surprised and be touched because after all some emotional distress due to my disappointments over my friends, i'd realized that they havent forgot after all. There was a surprise. They had it all planned.
That was my 18th.
Today is my 19th.
In that span of time, lots of things have happened in my life. I've found new friends who in their ways are truly unique,met altruistic people who inspired me to incinerate my passions for whatever i am into,got a somehow clearer picture of what i want to become in the future,realized some more dreams,learned a little more about the life and death, have been less apathetic.
Today, I am 19.
This is my last year as a teenager. OMG!
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