Sunday, November 30, 2008Y
i dont have the right
i am to go back again to lb but i really really dont want to go. the journey back is very tiring and boring too as i wont be travelling with zyan. she can go tomorrow, i cant or else i would miss another math 36 class which i really cant afford because ive been absent for a number of times now. So long incentives.
My dad is here.This happens to be a very rare occassion cause he works abroad. As much as possible, i wanted to spend more time at home than in any place else. But i cant.
i just cant. my things should be packed by now but they arent. only goes to show how i dont have the will to go but i should. i will...yah later.
i remember my former roomate's line during tuesdays or whenever it hits her that another week of school is awaiting:
"balik na naman sa realidad"
right. this is reality for me. something i decided for myself which apparently, i cant change until after this school year ends. i regret my decisions but i dont get to complain. I dont have the right to says my dad. Fine. but it doesnt change the fact that i get tired travelling to-and-fro every week.
i wish Santa truly exists so a red hot car would pop out in front of me for christmas.
or my parents would be kind to give me a car for my 18th.
so much for wishful thinking.
5:20 PM