Wednesday, December 10, 2008Y
Im Eighteen
Lines form on my face and hands
Lines form from the ups and down
I'm in the middle without any plans
I'm a boy and I'm a man
I'm eighteen and I don't know what I want
Eighteen, I just don't know what I want
Eighteen, I gotta get away
I've gotta get out of this place
I'll go running into outer space
Oh yeah
I've got a baby's brain and an old man's heart
Took eighteen years to get this far
Don't always know what I'm talking about
Feels like I'm in the middle of doubt
Cause I'm
Eighteen, I get confused everyday
Eighteen, I just don't know what to say
Eighteen, I gotta get way
Oh, lines form on my face and hands
Lines form on the left and right
I'm in the middle, the middle of life
I'm a boy and I'm a man
I'm eighteen and I like it
Yes I like it
Well, I like it, love it, like it, love it
Eighteen, eighteen eighteen
I'm eighteen and I Like it
-I'M Eighteen, creed
so, it's just 18 more days till i grow another year older. odd, cause this time it means not only that i'll be older by a year but also that i am to be on my own now. Meaning, whatever legal consequences my future actions may bring would be
MY sole responsibility. What if i jay walked for over-looking the street sign which says, 'no jay walking'? Then, i wouldnt be excused of the fine. damn. i havent even experienced singing the national anthem which was supposed to be the punishment for jay walking minors. What if, in the future, i obliviously disobeyed the law? What if someone accused me of a crime? what if i become a thief? a murderer? a holdaper? what if i become an alcohol abuser ?what if i begin smoking and became addicted to it? worse, what if i get addicted to drugs? what if i get pregnant? omg. these negative thinking could go on with a long list. but really, what if??? What if??? WHAT IF???!!!
i wouldnt be excused then from the law. i'll be in jail with the dreaded people.
okay, thinking it through, im never really disturbed by the fact that i can be in jail because i do those sorts of actions. what i really am afraid of is that there exists the possibility of an arrogant future me who'll always include the lines of these sorts: matanda na ako...,blah blah blah..., buhay ko to..., blah blah blah... etc in her reasonings. therefore, i am afraid of myself.
okayyy. maybe im overreacting. people grow old and so this is just a natural phase. turning 18 is a natural phase. But even so, i'm oblivious and so confused with what my life maybe in the future. how will i be able to decide rightly on things of importance? i dont know!
But with the negativity aside, there are several advantages of being 18. One of which is the first thing that i will do when that day comes, TUMAYA sa LOTTO! whooohooo! Seriously, i've been thinking about this since the 2nd quarter of this year and i am really going to do this, come what may. Who knows?
Also, i'll be able to exercise my right to vote come the elections. Compared to my stakes in LOTTO, this is no laughing matter. Ideal maybe, and just really fed up with the corrupt system of our country. I'll vote and i'll make a change.
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