Saturday, December 27, 2008Y
I'm 18
Part OneI was born on the 28th of December-Childermas -the day that commemorates the killing of innocent male infants under two years of age as ordered by the King Herod of Judea. Tradition is (or maybe it is just within the circle of my parents' friends), you can fool and joke around with people and be spared of their wrath. Like April Fools in american tradition. My parents, even though i cant fully remember, have relayed countless stories of how their group fooled countless persons.
My birthday was therefore a joke, that's what they usually say because only a few people come to celebrate with me during my past birthdays. Seriously? i never really believed in the idea of it because the tradition was not practiced these days. Well i blame it much to my untimely coming out of this world. Had i come later, i still would be 17 till next year and my birthday wouldnt be in line with the holiday season when all are busy spending quality time with their family. Actually, I have this envy with those who were born on the eve or on new year's day -the instant celebrity babies, considered to bring luck and good fortune to the family. wow. who wouldnt envy that?
anyway, having said that only a few people come celebrate my birthday with me, i wasnt really that motivated to have a party for my debut. And because of the unfortunate event that occured to our family, i cant really have an official party. But i changed my mind eventually because i thought that my friends will consider since it is my 18th. but they didnt... or so i thought.
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26 Dec 08
i was depressed, because all those i've invited have reasons to not come- even those whom i really depended on have certain whereabouts on that day of suppossed celebration.But really, i was intuiting that something is about to happen. well i was just too shy to really tell it because the shame would be double if i am wrong.But seriously, if it wasnt for joyce' reason, I would've considered the reason of others merely as alibis.But i have forgotten that this day is the the birthday of the brother of Joyce,Milo. So, it wouldnt be fair if her reason would be considered valid and the reasons of the others invalid.
27 Dec 08
spent the day mostly with Badang and with Angelica and Joyce who were unsurprisingly late. Treated them at Pizza Hut so that i could somehow take revenge of the 'pangiiwan sa ere' of Zean, Cha and Peh; then watched One Night Only (which is napakamababaw talaga pero ayos rin na laughtrip, pampatanggal ng depression).
so paguwi ko, andaming nakaabang. parang anlaki ng kasalanan ko. actually dapat di pa nga ako uuwi. Manonood pa kami ni Alyn ng fireworks sa mega, kaso halfheartedly nageexpect din ako eh kasi syempre di naman papayag si ama na wala lang mangyari. Ayun ang galing meron nga.
haha.
I shouldnt have trusted my instincts talaga oh. e di dapat bago ako umuwi nakadaan pa ako ng salon. haha. eh ndi, e di magulo buhok ko...haii as always. ayyy at really really stressed at haggard pa ang itsura ko. yikes! kaya ayun, yung mga ipopost ko sa multiply/friendster/blog etc na mga pictures ay screened na. haha!
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