Saturday, January 17, 2009Y
of getting what you want and wanting what you get
Say, under a circumstance you have been given what you dont want but, at least needed, or you got something which really was just a second thing in your priority list; something which really wasnt the one which makes your being burn with the desire so powerful.
What would that make you feel then? It has been said, in one of my Philo class last sem, that it is always easier to just want what you get rather than to get what you really want. True enough, as it seemed that its psychology, admittedly, is evident in me.
I remember having this desire to pass some college entrance test when i was still my fourth year high school. Well, i know my parents wont be able to send me there because of the uber high fees and they were thinking that if ever i would be sent there to study, i' would undergo some drastic change in lifestyle which i never really see as that drastic up to now whenever i think about it. Anyway, as I've said, and for my self- fulfiling prophecy's sake, i wished and really wished hard that i pass that really epistaxis (oa?) inducing exam. That would be something really self fulfilling. However i didnt. What the hell?!
The announcement of the other colleges/universities i have applied for came out. I only took three college entrance in the BIG 4. My thinking then was to be in the BIG 4 or nothing. ( very similar to the quote in the UPCAT the movie, "UP or nothing".)And i passed the the remaining two. But, broken as i was, the anticipation for college seemed to had died. So at about that time, i was indicisive of really where to go for college. It was only during the time that my parents were already intervening with my decisions, making me go to a school which isnt a part of the Big Four plus that which location is very near our residence, that i decided to choose a school where i could have a greater horizon to venture, UPLB.
Well, not that i didnt know that i would eventually end up in UP, and being pseudotagged as an iskolar ng bayan.
So far, i am enjoying being a up student.Not because the psychology of my argument has been applied on me. NO. this case, wasnt the one i am referring to. The knowledge i gained over the last few months, im grateful for having acquiring them. I am proud be a trainee of THE UNIVERSITY in every aspects of life.
Me. The Physicist. What do you think?
I was thinking of shifting course. Applied Physics maybe? Afterall, that was my first choice. Again, another unfulfilled self prophecy of mine. This was the thing ive been talking about. I am currently taking up BS.Industrial engineering and have no negative thoughts about it. I like it the way i should have like everything given to me. As if a gift, i shouldnt have a say about it but should be grateful for it. But everytime i remember this person, a mentor as to say, who i've always admired, nostalgia hits. I aspired to be someone like her sometime. Someone who influences students in a way only she could do. She wasnt my phsyics teacher but as her forte is physics there's something about phsyics and her which is unbreakable.
I should have my decisions before this sem ends.
Help?
BTW. Congratulations to all UPCAT passers! Cheers to you!!!
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